and it takes an I to complete this riddle. So let us hold fast to saying the same thing.


four down. three to go.

My BSES1106 Group. Love them to bits haha sebab hantar kerja ikut time, tak banyak buat songeh & belanja makan karipap & teh ais sebab tak makan satu hari. lol. Hari tu kitorang meredah hujan lebat semata-mata nak ambil gambar2 for the assignment. And yeah, this one too. :)

Gambar ini sungguh irrelevant. :P

I pray to god my english presentation on Brain Testing (yet again) this thursday will go on smoothly without any interruptions in the middle of my speech, as done by my previous english teacher.

So yeah now I'm done with 2 presentations and 2 assignments. 3 more presentations coming up and 1 more assignment and I'm free as a bird weeeeeeeee!!


My finals are gonna start on the 22 April!! I haven't study a thing on measurement, my weakest subject to date. :(

Off to better things to do now like studying for my BQEQ 1133 test tomorrow ciao! XD



There are some times when I really am just asking, no hidden meaning behind it. Sometimes, it’s mere curiosity.

of cute white rabbit

Okay I'm taking a break from studying for my very very important test tomorrow to write about something that has been on my mind lately.

A cute fluffy white animal with the most adorable looking pair of ears and teeth and paws. 


I've been dying to get a white rabbit. Not like the one in Alice in Wonderland tho, he's a mess. haha. This one talks less and doesn't throw away cups up in the air. Preferably any kind of white rabbit, erm, better if it's a baby rabbit cuz I wanna be able to hold the cute creature on my palms. Yeah, treating a pet the way it should be treated. Caring for them, feeding them, stroking their furs with the utmost affection and love. Sorry poor old hamsters you're way too hyperactive and wild for me to do any of that. I'm scared you might run away the very moment I open the cage. :P

My cute fluffy bunny munching some sayur which i actually fed!

Just look at how cute she is! I didn't know a rabbit could actually do split while lying down. 

So yeah, for my upcoming 20th birthday which is just around the corner, exactly 29 days if you ask me, I'm hoping dad would be kind enough to get me one. Everyone is opposed to my idea of bringing in another pet into the house. 2 rotting Roborovski is hard enough to handle, what more with another rabbit. Come on, it's only selling for RM30 each. :)


Will turning off our lights for Earth Hour really make a big difference?

Maybe not if you're the only one who does it, but imagine if everyone switched off the lights for an hour.

About Earth hour

Earth Hour is a global event organized by WWF (World Wide Fund for Nature, also known as World Wildlife Fund) and is held on the last Saturday of March annually, asking households and businesses to turn off their non-essential lights and other electrical appliances for one hour to raise awareness towards the need to take action on climate change

Earth Hour 2010 is reportedly on track to become the largest Earth Hour yet, aiming to garner more than the one billion participant goal of 2009's Earth Hour. 121 countries have signed up for Earth Hour 2010.

Here's a list of 812 icons and landmarks worldwide that will turn off their lights for Earth Hour, including:

Taken from:

So show your support for Earth Hour by turning off your lights at 8.30PM

the last emo post. hopefully.

I know I've been emotional lately, hence, the melodramatic posts. So I guess I'll stop for now.

Going through a rough patch isn't easy. It's an emotional roller-coaster. At some point, you feel like you're in a shit hole and then you start blaming karma for all the bad things that has happened.
One thing I learnt.
It's not karma but it's reality.
You can't give in to the devil. You can't succumb to your dark desires or evil thoughts and close your eyes pretending to not see it happen.
Pretending is always easy. You can pretend and be a really good actor but you know you can't live that forever, can you?
One day you'll give up and just couldn't care less about what everybody else thinks.
The only thing you need is a good company.
Share your problems and talk. If they ditch you for being too honest and thinks you're being too weak, to hell with them. Try to talk it out with someone else you who you trust. Someone who you know will make you feel much better when you go to sleep and wake up with a smile on your face.

I'm in my last stage of recovery thank god.
I'm a better person now I think.

Good friends are hard to come by. They are the only ones worth staying friends with.
Just remember that when you're in your lowest point in life, you can go to them and know that they'll always be there to help you out.


just because she comes off strong,
doesn't mean she didn't fall asleep crying.
and even though she acts like nothing's wrong,
maybe she's just really good at lying.


And today I cried. Wishing, and begging for the emotional torments to end.


It’s amazing, some people, they just say these small little things, one sentence and it changes the way you feel about them in an instant. Small little words that can hurt you so much or make you fall deeply in love forever. It changes everything, nothing between you is ever really the same again, even if they don’t know it.


Leave me out with the waste and stop the uncertainties. Wouldn't it be easier and painless if you could just make up your mind. Oh you wouldn't have to be thinking it over if you just know. And there wouldn't be anything left to figure out. And it's a shame on you, the irony's lost.
You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect, you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break-her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.


of being in denial

We deny that we’re tired, we deny that we’re scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed. And most importantly, we deny that we’re in denial. We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can’t recognize the truth right in front of our faces.


Oh when you smile that beautiful smile of yours

‘Happy,’ I muttered, trying to pin the word down. But it is one of those words, like Love, that I never quite understood. Most people who deal in words don’t have much faith in them and I am no exception—especially the big ones like Happy and Love and Honest and Strong. They are too elusive and far too relative when you compare them to sharp, mean little words like Punk and Cheap and Phony. I feel at home with these, because they’re scrawny and easy to pin, but the big ones are tough and it takes either a priest or a fool to use them with any confidence.
Hunter S. Thompson


Je déteste la façon dont vous me faire sentir faibles et intimidés. Mais plus encore, j'adore la façon dont tu me regardes avec ce sourire adorable. Puis, j'ai perdu toute la faiblesse en moi et j'ai immédiatement sentir en sécurité et aimés
Never expect.
Never assume.
Never ask.
And never demand.
Just let it be.
Because if it's meant to be, it will happen the way you want things to be.


of cute kittens and us

I wish we can be more like this.


And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, it can't be fixed. And this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older and you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be or if it's already happened.


It feels so good it must be love.
It's everything that I've been dreaming of.


a heart that hurts is a heart that works

Cast your mind back to the days,
When I pretend' I was OK.
I had so very much to say,
About my crazy livin'.
Now that I've stared into the void,
So many people, I've annoyed.
I have to find a middle way,
A better way of givin'.

So I haven't given up,
But all my choices, my good luck.
Appear to go and get me stuck,
In an open prison.
Now I am tryin' to break free,
Be in a state of empathy.
Find the true and inner me,
Eradicate this 


No-one can take it away from me,
And no-one can tear it apart.
'Cause a heart that hurts,
Is a heart that works.
A heart that hurts,
Is a heart that works.


Here’s to you. Because I’ve never met anyone who makes a better you, than you.


He is such a hunk!


Letting go doesn't mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be.
Seriously, you need to know the difference between the so-called "feeling close" and real friendly.
In the face of true love you don't give up even if the object of your affection is begging you to.
~ Chuck Bass

like hello?

A girl and a guy were speeding over 100mph on a motorcycle 

Girl: Slow down, im scared 

Guy: No, this is fun 
Girl: No its not, please, its too scary 
Guy: then tell me you love me 
Girl: I love you, slow down 
Guy: Now give me a big hug 

She gave him a big hug 

Guy: Can you take off my helmet and put it on yourself? Its bothering me. 

In the newspaper the next day a motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on it only one survived. 
The truth was that halfway down the road the guy realized that the breaks were broke he didn’t want the girl to know. Instead he had her hug him and tell him she loved him one last time. Then he had her put his helmet on so that she would live even if it meant that he would die. 

Like that would happen in real life.
It feels like the most appropriate response to everything.


At some point in one's life, 
they have a particular person who they trade souls with. 

you are with this person and they are with you, right? 
you confide in this person, 
you share secrets, you tell stories.
you laugh, you cry, and you hug and you hold these people. 
you trust them with your life and you make promises that aren't even imaginable as broken. 
you say i love you and mean it with every little bit of everyhting that has ever made you who you are. 

you dont think about anything or anyone but them, and focus is seldom when they're not around. 
when you're not talking with them, everything around you just crashes. 
you bite off your nails and tap your feet and run circles around yourself until you hear their voice again. 

days feel like years and weeks are a complete different incriment of time. 
being able to hold them is the most rewarding and reassuring feeling on the earth. 
seeing them happy makes you happy. 
seeing them sad makes you sad. 

you do silly little things that remind you of them. 
seeing pictures of you and them can make you smile and feel shattered at the same time. 
you dwell on past times with them and plan out the next time you will see them. 
they give you butterflies that have no escape until you fall asleep. But then they return in your dreams.

you draw and you write, you sing and you do sweet little things for them. 
you cry at night when you are forced to accept the fact that they're not there with you. 
and you cannot even imagine life without them. 

I have my person.


You can't love if you can't trust.


My Saturday

Spent the weekend eating chocolates dad bought from India and cleaning up my hamsters cage. I also managed to stuff myself with North Indian cuisine at Aryan. Good stuff. The Paneer Masala and mushroom curry spice was delicious!

Oh yeah. Say hi to my lovely hamsters.

I'm normally not this shy.

Spider hamster.

No please don't jump off the roof!

The habitat.


and that's when I really know

That's when you know you found somebody really special. When you can just shut the fuck up for a minute and comfortably share silence.


of being a rockstar

It was an awesome night. 
A blast
The food was great
The company, fantastic
The ballroom was filled with  drop dead gorgeous rock star wannabes. 


WE are the Rock Stars!!!